i feel as if that infinity isnt really the biggest because it contradicts the reason that theres nothing after it

well when we are talking about an entity older than infinite themself that action was cause by the reaction was created form the origin, lets take this as an example we have a graph and it starts from one place like a parabola but when we take something like y=3 its when we ask where does it comefrom because if we are starting from the middle its as if saying that time was created in the middle of all things and that cannot be true because the middle point is always going forward because its the average of 2 things the beginning and ending and those 2 variables are infinite hence the higher form of entity may be a number that cannot be defined or explained but thats what people think, you see infinite must come from somthing and that something is what i call x-instance where its a x variable outside of the reality the box now thinking outside of it is a pretty good way of putting it but its bassically a number where it cannot be created destroyed added or excluded its always there and always bigger than the next variable that comes along

well in this case the x-instance is a made up concept but a concept that cant really be proved to be false because you cant attack something that is made up to fill the gaps in reality itself such as a higher being thats always existed longer than infinity